Summary: I am a good guy.
Keir Sarafian may not know much, but he knows himself. And the one thing he knows about himself is that he is a good guy. A guy who’s a devoted son and brother, a loyal friend, and a reliable teammate. And maybe most important of all, a guy who understands that when a girl says no, she means it. But that is not what Gigi Boudakian, childhood friend and Keir’s lifelong love, says he is. What Gigi says he is seems impossible to Keir…It is something inexcusable—the worst thing he can imagine, the very opposite of everything he wants to be.
As Keir recalls the events leading up to his fateful night with Gigi, he realizes that the way things look are definitely not the way they really are—and that it may be all too easy for a good guy to do something terribly wrong.
Chris Lynch has written a no-holds-barred story about truth, lies, and responsibility—a story that every good guy needs to hear. (Summary from back of the book and image from books.simonandschuster.com)
My Review: I had a horrible time trying to get through this book. Really. And it's not even written at a difficult reading level. By that standard, I should have breezed through this in a day. But I didn't and here's why: Have you ever wanted to read 200 pages of teenage boy inner-rambling dialogue? No? Me neither.
This book was recommended to me by a librarian as a companion book to Speak--a fantastic book despite the subject matter of a girl trying to heal after rape. What a let down after reading the artful craft that Anderson produces. The idea of reading this book is to get the opposite perspective, which I was on board with hearing another point of view. And while it does give insight into the mind of an abuser and how innocent he views himself, it is disgusting and perverse. Anyone who can rationalize away all the horrible things he's done, over and over again, and then take it to the level of raping a life-long crush not thinking it was wrong, is deranged. Reading it I felt dirty and disgusted most of the time. I can't say that I feel I understand that mind any better. It's just so very wrong, so very distorted. I cannot recommend this book. I just can't.
For the sensitive reader: It's depicting a rape from the abusers point of view--that alone should be a sign that you don't just hand this to any kid. It also depicts a single father taking his 18 year old son out to a bar and drinking with him. Plenty of things to be wary of in this book.
Rating: 2 Stars--and only because it took on a very difficult perspective. I have no idea how one would try and paint the abusers side, but Lynch did fairly well considering.
Sum it up: Such a frustrating, disturbing, deranged read.